(For Halloween, of course) P.S. This post is targeted towards a girl’s costume but if you’re a guy, that’s cool, too.
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Tag: highschool
This is just the Beginning
Maybe this is the start to my happily ever after.
A bunch has happened since my last personal post. Veronica’s getting ready for her big wedding. I’m basically doing rehearsals every weekday and so I only get home around 8. And now I am finally starting my modelling career! How exciting!
All this stress has got me going extreme on personal care (including LOADS of sleep), I need to be at my best if I want good results….
I have a good feeling about the next few months. Let’s knock on wood just in case. 😉
Why is PDA a bad thing?
Stupid question, I know. Just hear me out.
PDA is just affection. If we encourage love, why do we get grossed out or just show disgust towards it but then turn into hypocrites when we do it ourselves?
Teenage Years
Can I just begin with, popularity sucks.
Here is why.
a) you have to take into account other’s ideas about you and ideas of who you should date/be best friends with
b) you have to live up to these expectations
c) you have to explain to everyone why, why oh why you chose the other path
Anyone who decides to think differently about it and turn their cheek on the subject is wrong.
But being a teenager isn’t about staying noble and loyal like some puppy to your parents and everyone around you (if you do then you’ll never survive without your mom, cough cough Victoria on America’s Next Top Model.)
Being a teenager is about starting to take control over your life, making your own decisions, and ultimately breaking some rules and promises if you have to do it to be truly happy or satisfied with your life.
Sometimes it may be right to take a minute to think about consequences, but that is just for a moment, don’t over think things.
By today’s turn of events, I’m going to stick with what my heart says. I’ve been living with the thought that following your mind is what you should do, but I was wrong, it messes you up, almost turns you into a heartless being really. When you are faced to make a decision that could really scar you, you obviously will turn to your mind and start thinking, but it gets out of hand sometimes.
I was faced with either staying with someone with whom I’d have the benefits of a tough football guy who everyone approved of, or going with summer boy which no one approved of. Of course, I had feelings for summer boy. I never really had feelings for the football guy, nor was I physically attractive, so it was either be happy and cross my fingers that people won’t judge my choice (people like football dude’s friends which I’d later have to explain to) or pretend to be happy with someone I never will be with. Feelings take time, sure, but there were also little things in between.
For once I chose my heart over anything else, I really forgot when I was over thinking things. and let me just tell you, it feels so much better.
As cliché as it may sound, follow your heart, make your own decisions, and stick with it. Just do it.
xoxo,
Stacette.
Protected: What the Actual F***.
Relationships Now
I’d like to start out by saying, if we don’t have enough of a connection to really talk in depth about things that we both are interested in, don’t even think about asking me out. (I’m talking three hours of several paragraph messaging, and oh yes, it does happen in real life.)
Call me a whore, whatever youre definition of it is… But I am serious when I say: out of all the guys I’ve really talked to, only few have crossed my mind as the thought of “oh my gosh they’re totally like my soulmate because like we have the same interests and like we talk for like hours and we’re like deep!” I really believe that a successful relationship is one that has (close to or) all checks for terms like attraction, communication, trust/reliability, etc… There are probably a lot more than that but I’m just being brief.
Guys, I know it’s hard for most of you to deal with things when you’re just so damn attracted to her. I think the first step that you GUYS can do to prevent any misconceptions occuring in most modern society relationships (I’m looking at you, highschool boys!) IS… Be honest. I’m not even joking. If the biggest reason you like her is because you want a “fuck buddy” or you want her to be your “only fuck buddy”, TELL HER. Okay, now, don’t go off texting her “I want you to be my fuck buddy” just yet… In fact, dont be the one to text about that. Why? Because if you want to see if she’ll agree (I’ll spare you my judgement in your choice here) you don’t want to pressure her into it. NO; just because you asked her “are you sure?” and she said “yeah” doesn’t mean she actually meant it. That’s like simple pursuasion right there. Do it in person, that way you can really see the facial expression and body language to tell if she is ready or not… or wants to. The point of this is to not be misleading. Don’t tell her you want a long relationship with her if that isn’t all you want… 1, that’s emotional damage if she really falls for it, 2, you’re being a douche, and thinking with your dick. Stop. It’s no longer attractive when you’re a douche, give some fucking respect. And seriously dude if you’re really one to be okay with pressuring her into something like that… I’m judging you.
I just realized that this post is sort of homophobic but I’m sorry I just don’t know anything on that! :S
Girls, respect yourself. A wise friend told me that you should not allow a guy to think he has you right away because if you do imply so, a guy’s mind(/dick) will automatically think “oh, ok, alright- I got this, so I can like get far with her”… You must sit on a throne and he will be the peasant coming to you with a request and you will be the one saying “Hmm, I don’t know, maybe, I will see”, because that way they can’t take the advantage over you.
This post may also show off as offensive and sexist but I’m just being completely honest because this is pretty much the biggest problem in our modern society (highschool, anyways).
I guess it really depends what you’re looking for. For me, this is just the basics I have so far learned about our modern relationships… In no way am I saying this is absolutely the right way to deal with things… This is just what you can call my way or opinion on how it should be. You could have some other views than me.
-Stacette
Back from Camp!
Oh yes, I am back! So much happened- I just feel exhausted, I can’t even think of WHERE TO BEGIN… But it’s been a good time, being a special mentor at the campsite for the past four days.
I was in the “bully prevention” or “High School Survival Guide” team as we like to call ourselves… All of the normal mentors got to have cabin groups, and then take care of bigger groups for the activities during rotations. Since I had shifts to work on etcetera, I got to choose any cabin (of course I chose to be in one with a close friend) and do whatever during breaks (there were several of us on the team so we took shifts in the two cabins).
Obviously, once I got the chance on my break, I went out canoeing with another really great friend. Looking back at it actually makes me giggle a little… The waves were pretty choppy due to the harsh winds that day, and so whenever we were parallel with the waves I freaked out and turned the canoe around so that the waves wouldn’t tip us… Overall it feels like we had won the challenge agains the storm that had chased us out of the water.
During meals we had to sit in a cafeteria place in tables according to cabin group, so I did take advantage and also jumped around some tables to get the talk going with the cabin groups; basically breaking the ice between the youngsters…
The dance was pretty… interesting… I haven’t got a word that could describe how I felt about it. Ahah, and I’m sure it wouldn’t be a good one. The dance was pretty graphic from what I saw that was happening between the niners… Sigh, when will they learn? Technically I spent most of the time outside of the dance hall since the visible sweat vapour in the air was just insanely unpleasant. Euh. So, instead I took the time to stay out and herd the people so they didn’t wander or ditch the dance etc. Outside it was nice, the air was cool but not to the extent that you absolutely had to wear a jacket. I hung out with some friends and some aquaintences (one of whom I’d really like to get to know more but I doubt it’d ever happen) while shooting hoops… Later a good guyfriend of mine had a problem (during the dance; sounds bad, I know) so we attempted some yoga in the moonlight while talking it through… But overall my experience was in my favour, and from what I heard, in others’ favour, too.
Oh! I almost forgot to mention, the camp we were in had been a a film site for the movie Camp Rock! I don’t care if that’s a Disney movie, I still got pretty happy that I had been in a room where Demi Lovato and the Jonas Brothers had filmed. Don’t you dare judge me and my passion for acting.
So, to sum it up, I did come out with some new friends, some closer ones, I got to be at one of the best camps while missing school, and I had gotten experience for an application to work at a summer camp! Hella good. Don’t even ask about how muh homework I had to catch up with after, sigh.
Highlights of Today -shorter than yesterday (thankfully)
Alright so you may have noticed that I’ve mentioned “cute” and went all sweet about today’s post when I mentioned it in yesterday’s “daily” post… Yeah… That’s my mood of the day.
Highlights of the day:
-Woke up in the morning, later than usual, and mastered the challenge of 30 mins to get ready with 20 mins left to chill…
–He knows that I pass his class on my way to my class for second period… He waited to see me out of his class to see me, omg! LITTLE THINGS, GUYS. Gets me every time. Especially since he’s not the suck up type of guy, if you know what I mean.
-During lunch a bestie and I gained the balls to get outside and walk in the pouring rain to buy pizza!
-I saw him three times today, hugs included… Which is good because I get so frantic in the hallways going to class just hoping I will… and normally it’s only about once I see him.
– Before the end of school I also saw him, he’s found out where my locker is I’m guessing… And he got a full hug since this time my bag wasn’t in the way…. that bag is the epitome of awkwardness when it comes to “backpacks”… It’s not even a backpack. I just use it sort of as one, but properly.
-I think we’re back to seeing eachother, later on a weekend.
How great is that? I finally don’t have to wonder whether I’m reserved or not…
Because there were ideas about three other people interested that my friends had been pushing on me (I think one of my guyfriends is mad at me, too… I think you may know who I’m talking about here if you’ve kept up to date)… But I can finally reject those, with pleasure. I now have a legitimate excuse for my friends to forget naming any attractive guy passing in the halls “my man”… I don’t understand their logic.
Plus, this was the outcome I truly was hoping for. “Getting over it” just wasn’t an option.
I think I’m starting to like time, it has gotten me through a lot, gotten me to a lot… and it definitely helps me figure out things.
On another note, I am ecstatic and just can’t wait for fall to start. I DEMAND SWEATER WEATHER! (actually I already wore a sweater today but still) I just love seeing the fall colours come in, may as well adore it while it lasts!
Yesterday = Hectic
Ooh, I think I should get my calendar and mark this as the day that I had the most stress and stress relief…. Today was hectic, I woke up frantically choosing clothing and doing my makeup super well done, for it was picture day! Oh, yes. Picture day: the day when everyone dresses up just a little more than usual to make their parents happy to recieve the hundreds of photos they ordered, and when we all feel a tiny bit insecure about how our student card will look since they only took one frame!
I had gotten through science easily because I am actually understanding things in class, and when you understand, it becomes fun and quick… So I left without homework from there, but then I had civics and guess who I bumped into during the walk of fame in my dress?! Him.
For some odd reason I’m getting a hint of “I don’t really feel the same way” while at the same time I’m getting “I still really want to be with you” from him. Wouldn’t that make you also hesitate? This is the core of the problem…! Anyways I’m stepping off track…
Pictures went well during civics, since we were only copying notes in class today… I saw brownie today (yes we have nicknames like “brownie” for the boys on my to do list. Joking. But he still remains in my mind even though I did decide to stick with you know who.) We actually made eye contact in the halls and smiled (Well I smiled, he gave a really chill smirk and nod or something along the lines of that.. I was too captivated by the moment), and that is good, since he is the shy one and normally in the past we’ve made eye contact but he’d quickly look away (oh, you shy boys… just take the bait dammit! If she’s looking at you in the halls into your eyes/face/whatever else you have on there, chances are she’s thinking about you and interested)…
And here’s where the fun starts… Lunch.
Right away I had to rush to an interview for a spot on a group to be a page designer… Interview was easier than expected, went well and smooth, and I got in… So I’ll be doing 2-3 pages per month. THEN I had to go hand in a form and two t-shirts for the after-school activity, before the teacher left, because that time the teacher left right before I got there! After that, I had to go to one of my favourite teachers and pick out a scene/act to direct (including reading all the possible scripts and thinking through it), plus there I had to talk to a good friend on the going of the now three projects that you’ll be hearing of later, possibly. Last but not least? I had to eat. My phone was dead, which meant I couldn’t text any friends to find out where to meet them or anything.
UGHHH to be honest I’m not even up for really finishing this post (not much happened at noon, besides hearing a rumour that someone in my grade is pregnant? Really… no comment) because I had meditated for about 3 hours and was definitely in a really peaceful state of mind, sort of a trance, but very aware and definitely still awake… but all those thoughts about the day had passed away and now I’ve just simply forgotten any other relevant details… (mind how I’m changing from present to past tense because I may have sort of fell asleep while writing this at 10pm)
Wait- nevermind. I’m not done. I’m so terribly sorry.
When I went to food and nutrition, the teacher (one of the best) said we’d be cooking and so as one of the favourites, I got chosen to help out with another to bake cookies as a demo for the class… Hah, so I did end up wearing an apron but it didn’t help that the bowl I was using the beater in wasn’t big enough for the proportions we were working with, so I did end up with a liiittle bit of cookie dough on my cardigan (shame… shame.)
Finally it was the end of the day, but I had to go do a mentor activity… Tie-dying my t-shirt! that’s right! So I don’t really know if it’s good or not, but I’ll find that out once I wash it and unravel the amazingness. (Who am I kidding, it’s probably going to look like unicorn vomit.)
SO that was my so-hectic-day-that-I-couldn’t-even-finish-this-post-then… day…. O.o
Yeah. SO I’m going to go write up a post on TODAY now…. Sigh. This next is going to be cute though :3
Bring it on!
This is like the complete opposite of last year. If this year was slope, it’d be perpendicular to the one last year. (Yes, I just did a math reference)
Last year I did:
-nothing
-nothing
-oh, and nothing
Joking! I wasn’t a total loner. Either I was out with a friend, doing stuff with drama club, or working on a project in the library… But that’s about as exciting it got (besides the short periods I dated someone… Hah, like those grade nine relationships would’ve worked out… right.)
This year I have a load on my back (reminder, I’m not a freaking donkey…)
Alongside having Science, Civics (it’s easy but requires a nice amount of projects and assignments), and math all in one semester, I have a lot of out of school work to do:
-Volunteering on thursdays at local school library
-Start, shoot, and premier the new show… Remember, I’m still Victoria Winters when I’m not Stacette. (Double-life, hell yeah!)
-Be a mentor at school and go to the orientation camp for bully prevention (actually excited about that) and I’m planning to attending an Olympic parade as a mentor next friday… (depends if I make it in time)
-Choose and Direct a scene for a drama club preformance (even though I’m not taking drama this year, It’d still be nice to be a part of the drama group)
-Work as a yearbook page designer (hey, at least if I’m buying this thing I may as well have good photos in it! But, really I was considering doing it and a friend convinced me to)
To be honest I don’t think I can do much more than that (for now) I was wanting to try out for volleyball team, maybe track. I haven’t done either in like two years and think it’d be good to try it out again. Thankfully though, volleyball is more into the year (winter or springtime I’m hoping, since that’d be my second semester) and track and field may be, too… But honestly thinking about track, there are any faster people who have really been training to do it, I don’t think I’d be serious enough/into it as much and they probably deserve that spot to go to meets…
Don’t even think about cheerleading. I was thinking about it, but it’s not my thing. I don’t dance, and I definitely am no gymnast… Just, no. (Even though he tried out for football team and probably made it… I’d rather be the one on the bleachers sitting with a bunch of friends cheering him on with my heart instead of my poor dance skills. Really.)
So that is going to be my year, I’m guessing… The forecast seems pretty daunting, but not stormy, just a fun challenge. Bring it on.
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